"And you came just in time... to save this heart from black and white..."

God it feels good to be back.

It is so easy to lose yourself in the world sometimes. You spend your days looking forward to when things will get better and magically resolve themselves, but sometimes we need to look back and realize we lost ourselves along the way. I feel like I have run out of the Garden of Eden into a raging storm. I am lost and confused, but I keep running, hoping to find someplace better, someplace to rest, finally- but I don't turn around and go back. Why don't I just go back? Why can't I just turn around and make life happy again? Why do we have to reminisce about life in its best moments and despise the moments we have now? Why do we run forward so fast, farther and farther away from the things that make us happy, frantically searching for the eye of the storm? I don't have the answers. But I am ready to go back to the Garden and settle down for good.

It's time for a fresh start. It is time to take my life back. I refuse to let myself crumble under the sickness of this world. I am immune. I will, from now until forever, be immune to the death-while-living life supposedly imparts unto us.

Sorry life. I will not let you suck anymore.

Because you know what? LIFE DOES NOT SUCK. Life is beautiful. Life is a blank canvas, an empty staff, a new pair of ballet slippers. It is up to you to pick yourself up and make art.
So if life sucks, and is boring and overwhelming and painful, just slap yourself in the face and get to it. Once you start sketching and mixing colors, you will be inspired to paint your life together in the perfect combination of colors. Those dance shoes may hurt, but the more you practice, the softer they will become until they mold perfectly to your feet and bring your dancing to its best. Write your thoughts down, play some notes- the lyrics will ebb and flow, the cords will clash and resolve, but you will eventually end up with music worth playing for the rest of you life.

Because music can come just at the right time to save your soul. So thank you, Emma Morcroft, for doing just that- for bringing me back home. You came at the perfect time. 

I'm back. And I will never let them take me alive again. We are starting over, you and I. We are gonna do good this time.

     • Savy Hendrix