"...school's out for Summer!..."

School's out! Finally! Yesterday was my last day at school. Man, it feels good to be free. No homework, no school drama, no high school pressure, no Ms. Lowenstein! Hallelujah! Oh! Oh! Guess what? My dad (aka: the greatest guy ever) bought me a "Live and Rare" MCR CD, Life On The Murder Scene, and the Fall Out Boy "Live in Phoenix" DVD. I'm so happy! I'm definitely in for some major video watching, considering I didn't even watch my first MCR DVD. How awesome will this Summer be?!

More news: Monday's my B'day, but since I'm leaving for Vancouver on Sunday today my friends Chithenga (from school) and Miller (from before preschool!) are going shopping with me at the Jersey Gardens Mall. I'm planning on spending the bulk of my money at Hot Topic.

Hey, new subject. This morning (yes, THIS morning and yes, I realize it's 8:20) I finished reading this book called "Rainbow High". It's the sequel to the first book, "Rainbow Boys", in the series by Alex Sanchez. I first read "Rainbow Boys" in sixth grade and earlier this year I remembered it and reminded my friend of it. She said there were two books following it so I went and bought the second. Unfortunately, more than halfway through the book, my forgetful self and I lost it. Yesterday I bought it again! It was great.


"Rainbow Boys" by Alex Sanchez

This book is about three teenage boys trying to make sense of their lives in high school. Jason Castillo, the best looking athlete in the school, is trying to figure out if he's gay. Kyle Meeks is gay, but doesn't know how to tell his parents. Nelson Glassman is gay and the world knows it. And for that he pays the price of being taunted and bullied and beaten by the many homophobes in the school.
The way Sanchez sets up the characters, they are very complete. Their situations are believable and it's really an inside look at what some teenage boys really go through in life.


Of course, if I gave you a summary of "Rainbow High" it would give away the ending to RB. And I wouldn't want to do that, would I? :P So here's his site (I haven't really looked at it): www.alexsanchez.com

Well, I have to go. I'll try and post before Vancouver, but if not then I'll see you all in about 10 days! Bye!

"...crying 'FREEDOM!'..."

Sorry I haven't been posting lately, but I've been working on my ELA project that was due yesterday. After working on it and science homework since 3pm I finally collapsed into bed around 2:40am on Thursday. Luckily, I did end up finishing my project. See? Procrastination does make perfect ;)

Anyway, let me give you an update on the week. On Monday Santana asked me out (which in our school means being boyfriend and girlfriend without actually going on a date) and I said yes because he wrote this really mature, considerate letter to me and he's my friend anyway. Also, it's almost the end of the school year. On Monday Casey started going out with Martinez which was bad because he's a possessive jerk and he broke up with her last year on Valentine's Day. On Tuesday she found out her friend Rivera was going to ask her out when Martinez did so on Wednesday she broke up with Martinez (also he was following her around everywhere and always touching her). The same day she said yes to Rivera, but remembered her parents said she couldn't go out with anyone and said everyone was pressuring her so she broke it off with Rivera on Thursday. He understood, but Victor wouldn't leave her alone and he made her brownies and kept saying he loves her. Casey left for Utah early Friday morning so she wasn't at school. Mora keeps flirting with me cause he doesn't know I'm going out with Santana and meanwhile Peguero kissed [I don't know his last name] by force. She is way too controlling in their relationship, it's not going to end well. Also, Melendez asked Rivera out and he said no so Reid asked her out cause she felt bad. Then he explained the real reason why he asked her out and now her and her friends are mad at Reid. The whole time I'm staying up till 12am finishing my math and ELA project and texting 5 people at once trying to straighten out every one's problems. As you can probably guess, I need a break from school.

But good news: NO MORE SCHOOL WORK!!! The books closed on Friday and now all we're going to do for our last 4 days is clean, pack and go to the park! Yay! No tests, no projects, no school work, no homework. This is going to be fun.

I started getting into the habit of watching MTV and Fuse lately so now I have a lot of awesome music to share. Check up on [enter creative blog title here] this week because I'm gonna have a lot of free time (woo hoo!).

See you all later! Bye!

Attack of the Green Teenagers

I'm alive! (I'm alive! I'm alive! I can feel you all around me...) The picnic was kinda fun! I didn't wear green (which I wasn't planning to) and we walked FOREVER to get to a spot to eat. Then, hot and tired, we ate and talked. Then, (again, last names will be used) Chithenga and I feebly attempted to play badmitten but ended up collapsing in the grass and chatting. Then we did the team "sports" which really ended up being a relay race and a hula hoop game where we all held hands and sent a hula hoop down the line. We all had to fit through it without breaking the chain or letting it touch the ground. After that I was so hot. It ws 110 degrees out! And all the water that Ried poured on me had dried up. So our science teachers took about 20 kids (out of 120) back to school to sit in the cold science room with plenty of water, no lights and the movie "Who Framed Roger Rabbit". It was a relief.

I don't have much more to say. Life is slow and I have LOTS of projects to work on and I'm very behind. I procrastinate remember? So I will post when I'm less busy. Bye!

0.o

Woah. The strangest thing happened to me today. But first I will bore you to death about my weekend.

On Saturday I had my concert. It was awesome and my friends Casey and Dagny came to see it. Dagny slept over after the concert. It was really fun to see my friends have a great time together. Dagny had to leave early the next day, so I spent my beautiful Sunday doing all of my weekend homework (which I failed to do any of on Friday because my mom and I were watching the Big Mama's House movies). Today my visual for my history exit project was due and I had to present (which I knew of neither). Luckily, I finished my project early, so I was still prepared. It went well. I also wore my new shoes! Which I LOVE. :D

Now, for the strange stuff.0.o In Spanish, Rachel, Jason, Fugi, and I were playing Truth or Dare (along with our Spanish work!). Then, Rachel dared Jason to kiss me on the cheek. AND HE DID! I know, you are all probably too mature for this, but he kissed me! "Wow, he kissed you on the cheek, amazing..." you're all thinking, but I have a crush on Jason, okay! Just go along with my little girl immaturity.

Okay, I'm done. Now back to my normal, boys-are-worthless, valentines-day-sucks self. Tomorrow is going to in the 90's and we have to have a school picnic! Ugh! This might sound fun at first, but we're going to be split up into teams by advisory and play sports. I HATE team sports. And our advisory color is green. I don't even own anything green! Grrr.... I hope it rains. That I like.

Well, off to look up worthless things on the Internet/youtube and mope about tomorrow's picnic. See ya! (if I live....)

Life (sorry, no creative title today)

Hey everyone! I'm happy! Why you say? Because there's no school on Thursday and only a half day on Friday. We had a half day on Monday, too. This has been the best school week ever! :D Also, Casey and I are on great terms now and we've figured out how to be ourselves and still be good friends :) Well, that's my good news. I have a concert on Saturday and rehearsal for it today, tomorrow and Thursday :( That's my bad news. lol.

We get out of school on the 26th! It's still too far away, though. School is my life now. So life's kinda boring. I'm planning my b'day party soon cause I'm leaving for Vancouver on the 29th, but my birthday's on the 30th. Too bad Casey's leaving on the 21st...

Well, that's life. Will talk more tomorrow! (Or Thursday) See ya!

... You're never gonna fit in much, kid...

Hey, people, what's up? Today was like any other Wednesday, really. My friend Jason wasn't at school today. Hope he's okay, cause he came to school with stitches over his eye because "I was tryin ta do a tricky skateboarding trick, but I landed on my head". Smart, right?

Anyway, today I realized how much Casey has changed. Or most likely, how much of her I'm starting to see. She's so judgmental. She always calling people a slut or a whore behind their back and her favorite insult is calling people gay. Also that she's very rude to basically anyone who pisses her off the slightest bit. She also holds grudges a lot and when she's in a bad mood no one is her friend. At least not me. Finally, she's been hanging out with the more "popular" kids now and I totally support that... But I don't belong there. I don't mean to dis her, she's extremely funny and creative, it's just that this is how she is. I miss the Casey I used to have play-dates with and we used to laugh and talk and have so much fun. My other friends aren't as close to me and we don't share many of the same likes and dislikes. But I'm starting to feel that way with Casey, too. My one other good friend hangs out with people I can't relate to,  just like Casey does. She leaves me for her other friends a lot. But that's okay. Don't get me wrong, I don't hate Casey or any of the other people, I just don't fit in. Makes eating lunch really suck. Casey understands me less and less. It would be okay, but she doesn't get why I don't feel like I fit in. She always fits in.

Enough of my depressing rambling! Okay, let's see... I have a concert coming up this weekend! I love the songs we're singing. Can't wait for our international competition this summer in Vancouver! It's gonna be awesome. A lot of work, but worth it! (especially if we win!)

Alright, off to surf the web and youtube (of course). Adios!

p.s. If you are strange and like immature, twisted humor, search the Lazer Collection on youtube. Hilarious!

A real post!

Hi everybody! Wow it seems like forever since I actually wrote a post that didn't have to do with My Chemical Romance. Well... A lot has happened, so I'm going to start with school.

Guess what? I got an 100% on my notebook! Our ELA teacher grades our reading and writing notebooks every time we complete a unit and I got a 98% on my writer's and an 100% on my reader's! Yay! I wrote a poem about her(I'm not going to put her last name for the sake that she doesn't know I'm posting about her and I've changed the name of other people in the poem):

Monday for Claire

The hall is empty

but not for long.

Hold on tight, Claire,

stay strong.

A sleepless night,

another call.

Here they come,

once again down the hall.

"Get in line!

Listen up!"

"Jason-

shut up!"

"Quiet, [Casey], all eyes

on me.

Copy down the mini-lesson

and sit in your seat."

Down the hall come more

laughing and playing.

How can I go through the day

without saying

something rash that's on my mind.

Another parent meeting (ugh).

Just bite my tongue. Sigh.

They talk, they go slow.

"Shh! Copy the mini-lesson!"

Don't they know?

I had another argument

with mother last night.

Then [brother] and I

had a fight.

I couldn't sleep.

I need to call [Jake].

I'll be late tonight,

for our date.

"Sit down!

Look at me!"

I'm frustrated as it is.

Can they not see?

Talking back again

and again.

Like being in a bad mood

is some kind of sin.

Suck it up

keep control.

For them I do

more and more.

But they take for granted

the help I give.

All they do is complain

of the life they live.

I stick up for them in meetings

I care, I really do.

They would have more respect

if they really knew

how much I work,

how much I suffer

so they can roll their eyes and chat too their neighbor.

Why do I still care?

All they care about is clothes and hair.

Their ignorance frustrates me

to no end.

I have a life,

I need money to spend.

So with all of my worries

on my mind,

I will walk among the unforgiving ignorant

until 9:25



Did you like? She said it was hilarious and that I'm really talented :D lol!


Today we went to see a musical at the school Talent Unlimited. The play was boring, the sound system was bad and the girls showed a lot of skin, but the singing was good. Then, we went to the park and ate lunch. I was trying to be alone, but Casey came over to chat (which was fine), but she's really popular and all her friends came with her. Ugh. Popular kids annoy me. Then Casey bought me a Froz Fruit [thank you Casey! :)] on the way back and a trip that was supposed to go until right after lunch ended up being all day! Woo hoo!

On Friday, we're going bowling. Yay!

So, that's the news for school and today. Now let's see.... Oh yeah! I'm here to bring up.....Labels!

Well, on Monday I was officially labeled "Emo". It was my first day in school with my black nail polish and I was wearing the Ripper MCR shirt. On top of that, my friend read my poems that I wrote and her and her friend officially labeled me Emo. That was confirmed by my friend from YPC when she saw my shirt, nails, poems and MCR bag with all my buttons on it. Of course, she's also considered Emo, so she thought it was cool that she had an "Emo buddy".

Poetry leads me into two of my fave poems that I wrote:

Pretentious Ecstasy

Smile

Laugh

Pretend

Watch the sun go down

and believe everything is alright.

Watch children play

and don't think

it might be their day.

Does it matter if you scream

silent and dead?

If you look at the stars

do you wish they would fall?

When you see the rain

on your window

do you wish you would drown

in your lost pain?

And will you scream?

Will you care?

Or will you

smile

laugh

and pretend.


The End.

Will we run until

the end?

Hand in hand,

smiles in tears

and will we go

until

the end?

When day fades,

I think of your face.

I don't know

how to let you

see my heart

and let you know

how much you mean

and that I would take

your hand

and run

and cry

until

the end

with you.

Alone and together.

You made my heart

beat.

My blood

thaw

and so I think

I

Love

You

Until

The

End.

The End.


How did you like it? I just write off the top of my head while I'm listening to music.

Well, speaking of poems and Emo, I wanted to share with you this article.

Girl, 13, hangs herself after becoming obsessed with Emo 'suicide cult' rock band

Can you believe this? This author is so ill-informed! Right off the back, "though you're dead and gone believe me your memory will go on"? Excuse me, but if you're going to dis My Chem at least try. First, the author didn't even have the integrity to check if the lyrics were correct. It's CARRY on, thank you very much! And, if you ask me, My Chem has way more disturbing and morbid lyrics than that. "Can you stake my heart?!", "I think I'll blow my brains against the ceiling!", "Singing songs that make you slit your wrists.", "The amount of pills I've taking, counteracts the booze I'm drinking". C'mon! Oh, yeah, the memory of a loved one carrying on really makes me want to go kill myself!

Secondly, the girl obviously had emotional issues before listening to MCR. Two weeks is not enough time for something tragic to happen, then to get depressed, then kill yourself. Please, MCR might have morbid and exaggerated lyrics, but the band's music/lyrics are not what she committed suicide over. They have very meaningful lyrics that send out a good message if you look beyond the harsh words. Gerard has made it clear that he has made mistakes in his life, but he has learned and he wants his fans to know that suicide is never the answer.
Also, she was obviously suicidal. She made threats to kill herself! That is a major red light. Also, she showed her father the cuts on her arms, and what did he do? I'm sorry, but the author makes it seem as if the dad didn't do anything and accepted her answer of it being part of her "emo initiation". I would get my daughter major therapy! Also, the mother knew she was being strange and acting/dressing very depressingly, but she just thought it was okay because it was a fashion? Does she think it's okay? Who's in control here, mom? She was crying out for attention. She definitely had major emotional problems. I feel really bad for her.

Also, what's with The Black Parade? If you're "Emo" you are officially suicidal and think that you're going to join a marching band of skeletons when you finally succeed in killing yourself? I know where I'm going and it does not include The Black Parade.

MCR head of a "suicide cult"? I don't think so. Ever heard of Marilyn Manson? So you are going to tell me that MCR is the leader of a suicide cult. No thank you. The author didn't even do any research! And, the last time I checked, My Chem was never nominated to be the forerunner of a suicide cult.

Well, there you have it! My extremely long post. To express more outrage on the article, you can post on this: www.cowgirl4christ3168.blogspot.com/2008/05/my-chemical-suicide.html

Gotta sleep eventually! See ya!